He holds our hand and guides each step....

"For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your

right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. "

Isaiah 41:13

Letting go and trusting God is hard to do, especially hard when you're a Mommy and you've blamed yourself for an accident. An accident that you knew that you could have prevented if you would have been just a little more careful. The bottom line is that God knew, God planned and God will take care of our every need. He will hold our hand through the trial and the glory will be His!

Understanding that Jesus Christ guides EVERY single step is difficult, even more difficult when it means leading my sweet little baby boy right into pain and heartache. But I've learned a huge lesson over the past few days, I've been praying hard and open to the word of God and what he is teaching. I blamed myself and felt very guilty leading up to the surgery this morning, kinston having to undergo surgery because Mommy broke something and didn't get it cleaned up all of the way. But, God tells us “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10 And because we understand that ALL things have a purpose - "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 - I have conceeded to the fact that it wasn't my fault, but Jesus Christ purposed this very event into our lives to bring glory to Him, because we have been called according to his purpose! So, he holds my hand and says do not fear....and be still!

A friend of mine said this week. "I am blessed to have a friend that is so connected to our heavenly father that He chose her to go through something so that it may bring glory to His name!" Wow! That spoke volumes to me.....Sometimes we may not understand why "bad" things happen to us in our lives, but walking away from this situation with this HUGE new perspective, I actually have to say that I'm thankful. Thankful that God teaches in the way that He does!

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So, on to the details about the little guy! Wednesday we visted the pediatrician after Kinston had stepped on a piece of glass. They couldn't see it, but sent us for x-rays anyway. The x-ray showed clearly a piece of glass in his foot, the shape of a triangle about a 1/4-1/2 in in radius. (VERY big, the Dr. showed us after it had been removed). Thursday, 8am we visted Dr. Kim at West End Ortho - he immediately said he'd have to perform surgery to remove the glass. Friday, 5:45am we arrived at Chippenham hospital. Everything about the entire situatioin has been a blessing. First of all, Mom's good friend Faye "just so happens to work" in the hospital and talked to everyone about Kinston and made sure they all took good care of him. Second, our friend Jason "just to happens to work" at the hospital (His family brought us dinner the night before! So sweet) came to see Kinston and he ran to him and loved on him, wanting to leave the room with him (he doesn't work in surgery, just so happened to be coming in at the same time we were there) Thirdly, one of my very best friends works at the hospital too. She "just so happened" to be getting off of work at 7:30 - the exact time Kinston's surgery was to began. She came to see us and stayed the entire time of the surgery.....Now tell me it wasn't orchestrated by our heavenly father? We do not believe in this "just so happens" theory...we believe that all the glory is due to the almighty God who took complete care of us at every single moment.

Kinston did wonderful during the surgery, it was only 8 minutes long! Believe that? On the way back to the room he managed to pull out his IV so that was a little mess, but the wonderful nurses got that all taken care of. He settled down and all of his vitals were perfect and we were released! Through much anxiety and many tears, we had made it!!!!!!

I cannot begin to imagine the people that were praying for this baby and the rest of the family. I got so many phone calls, so many texts, so many messages on facebook.....the love is endless. I am amazed and in awe....thankful for each and every step guided by our heavenly father as he holds our hand....